I'm full.

It's 1:30 in the morning and I'm still up so that I can write this post--and to let my hair dry a little bit more before I mash it into the pillow. I don't like sleepy while I'm full, but hey, early class tomorrow and I'd like to get as much sleepy-time as I can get between now and... uh... 6. x_X;

Anyway, this is a story that must needs be remembered. Mainly because... well. I had fun!


(This is what we do while waiting for other members of our party to arrive. We got caught up with all the Asian in the restaurant, I'm surprised there are no peace signs!)

( Cut for real life )

That was a week that flew past way too quickly, and dragged on way too slowly, all at the same time, eesh. Proposal is done and in, presentation dates are signed up for, finance quiz is over and done, yada yada yada. Look how school wreaks havoc on your sense of time.

Speaking of which: so, had class today. Now, while it's billed as a 3-hour class, it never actually goes for three hours... just as well, since traveling home by bus is an hour long... and most of that hour is of the standing-and-waiting-for-the-bus-on-cold-dark-creepy-street-corners variety. Anyway, it also makes the class seem very not worthwhile to go to, since today's lasted about an hour and fifteen.

I spent it wanting out, because in the midst of the teacher's discussion of the upcoming report that needs writing, he said these magical words:

"Use of American English will be considered typos."

(All right, so it's paraphrased slightly, I snapped to attention at about the time where he said "if you write c-o-l-o-r, that's a typo." And typos, I shall also add, are worth -5% per infraction.)

( Cut for rest of rant )

...So, I keep having the strangest feeling that there are a lot of things that I'd been wanting to write about in my LJ... and yet now, with the open window sitting before me, I've got... well, pretty much zip. The joys that is my brain.

Anyway, I'll settle for the highlights as I remember them. Life is, for the moment, smoothing out (this, of course, will last approximately a day to a couple of days because there are exams and phases of giant term project due dates on the horizon) quite possibly due to mental procrastination. I've been getting results back from the hellish ordeal of the first wave of midterms/projects, and surprisingly, they balance out. I got some ridiculously bad marks (one 68 or 69, equally bleh) and some ridiculously good ones (98 on a term project) so they all flow into one big sigh of relief.

I re-read all of Harry Potter. I couldn't remember how it ended and that bugged me, especially since I had the vague feeling I remembered it to be good. And so I did. And I loved it all over again. The series has its slow, urgh-inducing moments (Order of the Phoenix will always be pretty bleh to me) but all in all, wonderful. I cried throughout most of the last book.

I'm still trying to rebuild my archives of stuff I had stored on Ebony. I've deduced that one large chunk of it is pretty much all my Gackt files (*tear!!*) and my raw doujinshi scans. ;o; And I was so proud of how many I had (if, perhaps, not exactly the content of most of them... tiny!child!girlish!Cloud is and remains to be skeevy as all hell), because a lot of it was about just having them, you know? (...That, and some of them were really, really good.)

And lastly... I miss people. Recent days have shown me yet again how easily I just let people slip away, and how much I don't want that to happen, and yet don't do anything to keep it from happening. :( But I'm gonna make an effort! No more of that if I can help it!

2010 Cosmos 4RW V8 Muscle Bike. And it would look sexier equipped with a good half-dozen swords. You know I'm right. :)

[EDIT]: Now with less layout break.

Okay, you know what the weirdest thing is? Finding your elementary schoolmates starring topless in a B-movie.

...Okay, well, I'm sure there could be weirder things. Possibly involving elephants. Or Silly String. But whatever. So, I was watching Poison Ivy: Secret Society while I was studying because clearly you don't need to actually watch or pay attention to the movie to know what's going on, and cheesy background music always makes for good study jam.

But I look up, and I stare and I peer closer and I go "huh, she looks familiar." And then I go back to studying. And then I look up again later and go "huh, she looks like someone I went to school with."

And then the boyfriend comes over with pie, which is certainly not integral to this story, but there was pie and distraction and so I partook and eventually he left. And I went back to the studying thing and the movie thing and then I looked again and went "Holy shit, I do think I know her."

Thus proceeded a quick IMDB, name-googling, image searching, bonanza before I went and dove into my stack of yearbooks to be 100% certain. Lo and behold...!





She was this super-skinny girl in dolphin pants with organs that could rearrange themselves up into her ribcage so that the distance between the front of her stomach and the back of her... back... measured less than an inch wide! And now I've seen her in her very first in-movie sex scene. With boobs. And pretty hair. Huh. Small world, howdy hi.

Bonus! This is me from the same year (7th grade).



...Those were horrible, horrible years. ;o;

All right, this entry used to be longer, but I was complaining about a point completely unrelated to this and mostly unnecessary. Who says I'm not learning this whole single-task thing? Anyway. The point of this post is to say that it is creepy to have someone follow you from an RP journal to your main journal to your MSN and then promptly begin begging for fun RP times. With a character that they researched for months because they thought he'd be the one with the biggest chance of having sex with your character. I'm sorry. What?

I mean... I don't even know you. Maybe if you at least belonged in the RP I'm in, or played with me in any number of ones I used to play in before, then I wouldn't feel quite so discombobulated at the intrusion on my not!!!!!!RP!related!MSN. And as promiscuous a history as Faith's got under her belt, I've deliberately taken her from a time where's grown-the-fuck-up a little and working on that issue so that I could distinctly avoid the desire to wild it out in the sack.

And, I mean, this isn't even considering the point where Faith's a no-touchbacks kinda girl even if your guy is the sweetest, most cuddly teddy bear on the planet which... if he was really trying to be that sweet, wouldn't be wanting to jump her guns at a strip club anyway. Also, again with the hello, I don't know you and don't want to write sex scenes with people I don't know.

How does trying to explain this to someone lead to them asking "but we can get to know each other! Do you do facebook?" I'm not that terrible at saying no, not interested, am I? Urgh!

(This post was brought to you in much hack-and-slash fashion. I'm sorry if its contents don't actually flow in a make-sensable... kind of sense. I'm tired. And weirded out. And have class tomorrow morning.)

So I have a billion and one things to do (not least of all sleep) now that I can properly post and... do all sorts of online-y goodness, but, since I've already started the trend on facebook and twitter, I might as well continue on a good thing. This is brought to you because of a conversation I had with midgarangel wherein the conversation turned to cosplay and the makeup that must go with it (...well, if you're going to cosplay someone as glee-worthy as Miwako anyway--who doesn't wanna be preeeeetty then? :D) wherein I gushed way, way, waaaay too much about Lime Crime's Magic Dust eyeshadow pigments.

And because I've since looked in my inbox and found Team Candyfuture-centric emails that got me thinking way too much about it all over again. Namely that now they come in double the magic which makes me ridiculously happy, and second, that they've released the new Candyfuture lipsticks.



They make me ridiculously happy. (If you want to look at the rest of the colors, you can find them on the site.) Not so much to go on myself, because heaven knows I don't know the first thing about putting color on my lips without looking like an ogre, but lipsticks of quality in wild colors that aren't from the dollar store and make you wonder just what kind of cancer you're catching? The future just got happier. (^_^)/ I'm loving that this happened just in time for Halloween.

...Which brings me to another question. Just what is there to do on that day now that we're too old and grizzled for candy-hunting anyway?

is a freaking go!



You have no idea how weirdly happy this made me. Finally I get an in on his "Sexy Perfume!" :D Pfff. Unisex indeed. Oh Cloud. You'll always be the best trap ever. ♥

(yeah, yeah, I'm a little late on picking up on this particular ball but I~ don't~ care~~!)

In other news, presentation/seminar is DONE! Could have been better, but those problems weren't 'cause of me. WHOO~!

...So I have a great deal of things to do; making sure I don't fail on tomorrow's Law test, getting stuff put together for the Marketing Analysis presentation, replying to tags way sooner than I am... (I tried earlier, but I've come to realize that Faith's the best gauge of my tagback abilities--if she ain't talking, the other two are like "...well shit, now what do I say?")

Anyway. That's not the point. The point is CHOCOBOS and that I want one.



You want one too. Tell me you don't. No really. Just try and tell me. Especially when you try and find out it FREAKING CHIRPS!!

(Sorry for picture size if it mashes your layout a little--I'm a little far and away from Photoshop atm, and I didn't want to kill the cute with Paint resize.)

An article about a game. The game was... uh... well. Doesn't really matter. Deep Space, Dead Space... eh.

Anyway. So I didn't notice the article, I just noticed the ad. (Who says they don't work?) Printscreened for your viewing pleasure (sorry it looks like shit, cropped it quickly in Paint)......



Does it look familiar?

( Cut because it's a little long to leave unattended, and who doesn't love a few seconds of suspense more? ;p )

Because hey, there are people still on there that I really would like to talk to, and discuss stuff from life, to RP (which once upon a time was close enough to life give or take a little schizophrenia) to my weird liking of Jennifer's Body. (I don't care what you say, trashy as it often is, and horror as it most definitely is not, there's something a little touching about best friends that go a little wrong, and a little right, and a little twisted, but still friends...ish.)

Buuuuuut now I'm getting off-topic. Anyway. Point is, I finally got AIM working for me again a while ago, and I've poked at it, and it seems to be running perfectly fine now--I just have this major avoidance issue with half the people who bombard me immediately once I sign on. Not that I mind most people trying to chat with me--hell, I love it. I get cuddly teddy bear feelings of "d'aww people wanna talk to me~" Yeah. Sad. I know. I blame my childhood too.

( Cut for AIM talk and because no one likes a pity party )

In other news, I hid away from the internet as a whole yesterday for a couple of hours, to reread Gone With the Wind and make a little Jack Skellington papercraft.



The printer cut off little pieces off the neck part which stick up into his head to keep it attached. This means his head comes off. A lot. But oh well. It's canon. :) I wanna make more. I also have a firm desire to clean up my room/dust off my Play Arts. Photos of them in random poses will likely ensue. And then I might draw. Less ranting is thus likely to ensue then, promise.

MSN isn't working. AIM isn't working. I am an island, and man does it suck.

Guess who made Team Candyfuture for Lime Crime Makeup?



Me! Me! Me! Happy dance is a go!

So my long, arduous trek to Washington D.C. disappeared into the abyss, and in the space of a couple hours, I discovered that it had morphed instead into a trip to the Maritimes. I'm in Fredericton, New Brunswick atm, and tomorrow I believe I'll be Halifax-bound. After that, PEI.

Guess it shows that even with all the pre-planning in the world, it doesn't compare in the least to the decision-making processes of my father. ^^;

Today was fun. It really was. A little shopping, a little playing around with my hair, going out with friends, having friends over, learning/teaching/receiving back/foot/hand massages. Really. :)

( Cut for minor RL family wangst )

Anyway! That wasn't the point of this entry. The point of this entry is that I saw this on ONTD yesterday, and found it funny. :)



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Taken from magitabasa:

1. Reply to this post with 'Icons!', and I will pick five of your icons.
2. Make a post (including the meme info) and talk about the icons I chose.
3. Other people can then comment to you and make their own posts.
4. This will - allegedly - create a never-ending cycle of icon glee.



I found this off of dA one day, many a year ago and fell in love with it at first sight. Because. Well. Dude, it's Sephiroth. Dancing. Like he belongs in Tenjou Tenge. How could I have resisted? Besides, watch it while you're listening to music. He dances to eeeeeeeverything. :D


Aww now this one was just cute. And I think it was part of a random icon batch for Easter by... uh... whoever made the icon, but I looked and clearly thought of chocobos, because I'm a fangirl and a loser. Thus. Mine. Mine mine mine mine mine.



I made this myself, not too long ago, proving that yes, even an idiot like Steph can figure out some parts of Photoshop animating goodness. In loving memory of kaasan, whom I finally allow myself to believe will never come again. ;_; I will miss Mother.



Just added this today actually! I can't actually remember where I originally found it. Here because hey, Disney is love. And Dorie is clueless yet still clearly badass. Besides, if I need to get in someone's face through LJ, I've already got a fish ready and willing to do the job. Over and over and over and over.


I... don't think I've actually used this one ever. No exciting stories to tell. It was added for a purpose, and that purpose was porn. Since I've not found myself in any position to go propositioning others for porn, Ku-chan's video camera has sat idly on the sidelines. But always good to look towards the future. :)


Whee that was fun.

I want Dissidia. :( Ignoring the fact that the trailers for the English version make it sound cheesy and silly, and I can count over half a dozen people shaking their heads at me for loving on anything remotely Compilation-related... uh. well. nyeh-nyeh-nyeh. It looks pretty, people keeping coming up with pervy screenshots, and yeah. :( Waiting.

Now the thing is! Square-Enix has already sent me the email discussing the pre-order price + coupon on Amazon, which comes with a free soundtrack CD. And yet I've heard tell of the Best Buy version coming with the desktop calendar like the Japanese release. Sigh. To steal a line from the boyfriend: I want all the gold pieces, dammit!

In other related, but not really news, I've been trying to get my head back into drawing and writing fic. Alas, when I ask for art prompts, I get "pokemon," and when I seek inspiration for fic, I find crazy youtube videos. Clearly this will not end well. Two of my favorites:





Both of which make me want to watch Ouran again and continue Tales. *-*

So Ebony is, for what appears to be the final call, totally beyond repair/recovery. Ebony being of course one of my external hard drives, which means 500GBs of data that is, infuriatingly, still there and potentially recoverable, except for the fact that some part is physically fried, smells like burnt hardware, and means everything on it is completely inaccessible. I also just can't afford to shell out $500+ to have a professional poke around with it.

Sad thing is, I'd finished backing up more than half of my old files from another failing drive onto it. Which means that a large chunk of the data on there is 10+ years old, and likely unrecoverable just by trawling through the internet/torrenting.

I just wish I could remember all the things that were on it, and all the things that are missing. Because there was a lot on there. Me on the internet is like the hamster in the corner of the cage stuffing its cheeks with as many sunflower seeds as possible so that it looks like a furry hammerhead shark. I hoard. And I can remember most of the categories if not the individu. I know half my music collection was on there. I know I had one one of the biggest Gackt video file collections (dated, obviously, I fell out of the catchup loop last year/year before) on the planet on there too. Hell, I had one of the biggest Asian music video collections out there, some of which was released on a torrent site that no longer exists. Gone, gone, gone, gone.

Yeah, the apathy's fading. I miss it all. :(

So I was reading some of the translations for the new revised On the Way to a Smile novellas, namely the new Black and White chapters. All I can think of is that Sephiroth and Aeris are way too alike for their own good. Clearly the moral of the story is that everyone must be obsessed with Cloud.

Aaaand because I was reading the comments, I was thinking that the fandom will forever be rife with arguments over which pairing is the most canon. And yet all I can think of is that this is just yet another reminder that Square-Enix will comfort me with its love of blissful ambiguity. I can work and dream in the land of "maybe," it's harder to do when you're a canon-nut and everything's too starkly black and white to play in.

In other different yet related news, why is it impossible to find a Zack Play Arts anywhere that's not the internets? :(

I got this review in my inbox today:

Story: Revenant
Chapter: 4. Chapter 03: A Time for War

From: sanctum_fw ()
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You updated. YOU UPDATED THIS.

I'm kind of embarrassed -- okay, a whole lot embarrassed -- to admit that I actually started sniffling when I realized you'd written new material for this. You'd gotten me hook, line, and sinker with the previous chapters, and then you took a REALLY. LONG. BREAK.

Considering that was right around the time when I'd just discovered that my favorite fantasy game of all time had its very own fandom, and that there were actually good writers in that fandom, well... you'd dealt a crushing blow, shall we say.

I eventually found other good writers, but I never forgot about this story. You've got a smooth style that drew me in fast; angst enough to feed the muses; that good kind of crazy, almost black, humor that I thrive on; and the way your characters come alive for me in that show-not-tell way: I loved this, and I don't have words enough to express it. Cloud's klutziness, Aeris' cheer, Zack's determination, and Sephiroth's sheer wariness were wonderful to see. The details of canon characterization were spot-on.

A huge plus was the way how the Destruct materia made its appearance: the thing that Seph threw at Cloud's head which eventually lead to his demise hath staged its entrance and instead saved him this time around!

On the minus side, the details are still really rather lacking and somewhat vague: events seem incomplete in their descriptions, and the characters have nearly reached becoming two-dimensional at this point in the plot, with still a ways to go to becoming fully fleshed-out PEOPLE. But, it's early yet (hurray for time travel! :) and the fat lady is still backstage practicing her chords.

Have faved this, and will await further development eagerly. (And if you aren't offended by me offering my services, hit me on Yah00 should you still need a beta reader.)

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I've never actually had someone point out so many good things I've never been aware of, and get spot-on the bad that I've been stewing over for months noticing and trying to figure out a way to fix. I've been so touched by the reviews I've gotten for this fic because while yes, I do love praise, and that's one part of why I do it, I've never considered anything I write to particularly memorable. Stuff like the above makes me think, hey, that might not be the case. It's a nice feeling. ^_^

If only they'd left an email address, I really am in sore need of a beta/someone to bounce ideas off of. Oh well. Score one for allowing anon to stick around! :D

Edit: Fixed the Comment Screening, didn't know I had that on. o.O;;