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07 September 2015 @ 06:47 pm
Someone tried to impress upon me yesterday the absolute uncoolness that was still having an LJ - but really, the only difference between the two of us was the audience. I don't need one and they thrive on it. Maybe I'm showing my age.

I've had exactly two days off in a row which... has been really great, actually. With my impossibly hectic schedule, these come few and far between. But whenever they happen, if I don't occupy myself being lazy (read: napping), I really start thinking about my own life and I start sliding back into that awful pit of self-doubt - that all of this is a waste and I'm just constantly losing sight of what's really important because I don't know what those are anymore.

I hate how busy I am, but if this is the alternative, then I prefer the busy. Productivity at least tires me out and gives me some sense of personal satisfaction - which isn't exactly the most optimistic view when I'm on the cusp of so many new things (school again, laser eye surgery), but the only thing that's keeping me going.

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Current Mood: distresseddistressed
Current Music: Spice Girls - Denying
13 July 2015 @ 06:59 pm
It's funny how our lives seem to fall into a circular pattern. The day after I seriously got down to drafting FFVII fanfic again, the FFVII remake was announced.

It's been several weeks now and I've hunted down my copy of the REUNION FILES, the various Materia lists, timelines, and Ultimania translations that I've saved/printed out over the years. I've binged on ciceqi fanfiction, started replaying the PlayStation game, and felt, for the first time in years, really think this is not going away.

I'm back, bitches.

There might not be anyone I know left on LJ, but that's not gonna stop me any. I'm so glad to be back.
Current Location: Canada, Toronto
Current Mood: optimisticoptimistic
Current Music: Trevor Guthrie - Soundwave
12 April 2012 @ 12:48 pm
So I just realized my header image for dearestophelia's profile was removed by Imageshack for being pornographic in nature. What dire straits have we come to when someone's charcoal sketch of a woman with a beatific face floating in water with one breast bared is considered pornographic and inappropriate?

This has been happening to a whole load of pictures I've had up, but this really shocked me. I went back to the guy's site that I originally borrowed the image from, and the closest I could find now is this where a dress has been painted on to cover both breasts.

Nudity is one of those things. You're either bothered by it or not. But I can't help but think this is taking things entirely too far. Way to go Imageshack. Back to my long ongoing search for a less bigoted image hosting provider.
Current Mood: annoyedannoyed
Current Music: Michael Buble - Come Fly With Me
21 February 2012 @ 07:04 pm
Poor little livejournal has managed to find itself sitting quietly by the wayside in recent... months. I've been more introspective and less inclined to type things. Maybe I've realized how boring I really am.

The upshot of all that thinking is that sooner or later (but hopefully sooner) my LJ will experience a bit of an overhaul. I don't know what I'll do with it. But here's hoping that it will be awesome.

...In the meantime, I play SWTOR. Yay.
Current Mood: boredbored
09 November 2011 @ 11:34 pm

release date cometh!
Current Mood: happyhappy
Current Music: Britney Spears - Toxic
23 September 2011 @ 02:57 pm
Well not quite. I'm not exactly broke, but I feel like one. Half of my textbooks I got through answering ads on kijiji, one of which involved meeting outside a Tim Hortons in the dark. But hey, what should've been a $800 price tag on one semester's-worth of books turned into a little less than $500. Still pretty okay to me.

I'm hoping to drop at least one of my classes this semester, and a couple more in the terms following. Saving ~$650 per course I don't take sounds even better, yes? Yes. Not least because we've been covering high school math in the past two classes. =_=

In other news, I have been deeply entrenched in making balls out of paper. Yeah. They're cool shit, don't hate. <3

Current Mood: cheerfulcheerful
14 September 2011 @ 04:04 pm
School again!
Current Mood: boredbored
Current Music: Cee Lo Green - Fuck You
07 July 2011 @ 01:45 pm
or at least the Russian spammers that dig up stupidly old entries on various journals just to comment random gibberish at me. Or the spammers in general who like peddling their hot women, super cheap sunglasses, and free drugs. Go away. 4srs.

In other news: I'm now 24, have watched a drag queen strut around with a nicer ass and thighs than I could ever hope to own, have earned a bronze star on Agendastats and... am still waiting on the corsets coming in the mail. Corsets that, I might add, are pretty, inexpensive, and have absolutely no functional value whatsoever. Yiiii. Bank account, I do you proud.

--And I hadn't even gotten to the makeup purchase. Guess we'll just call June my spend-y month. I've racked up enough hours at work to cover everything and then some, which alleviates much of the guilt factor, if not all the responsibility complex.
Current Mood: sleepysleepy
Current Music: Breaking Benjamin - I Will Not Bow
03 June 2011 @ 01:19 am
but I have very little to say. :(
Current Mood: indescribableindescribable
19 March 2011 @ 11:46 pm
The boyfriend went on a business trip. He bought me a cactus.

So pretty.

We are trying to be better.
Current Mood: uncomfortablequiet