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16 January 2009 @ 01:14 am
I found out there's something a little worse than finding out that one of your friends has died. Several somethings.

The first is finding out there is fire involved. The second is not knowing whether or not they died actively in fire or whether it was through smoke inhalation, etc.--inch for inch, I'd rather be sliced than burned any day. The third is finding it out a) through Facebook, b) after being quite cheerfully happy the morning through, and c) from reporters looking to ask you questions.

So yes. Dan Eaton's dead. I won't ever have to figure out new and interesting ways to separate him from the boyfriend ever again.

I miss him. Not just because I suddenly found him gone, just like that, right along with his parents, but because I've already been missing him. We've been trying to get together to hang out and help him catch pretty girls and dress like a rock star for months and months. It just never worked out.

It was weird. My inbox was swamped--it often is. And in the middle of giggling at RP replies to posts about pink wings and death to geass! was just... bam, btw your friend's dead. I've been trying to reply to some of the RP stuff, but I can't. I'm just... gloomy.

He found me on LJ. He found me babbling on about Hyde and my love of beautiful men and classes and realized he was in my Algebra class. He was the first person, hell the only person, that I met in Waterloo that honestly tried to help me get through the ordeal that was first year, academics-wise.

The boyfriend and Ronsen tried to help me a little out of my slump. Dan took the rest of the day off to be able to talk to me however long I needed, Ronsen dragged me out to the movies, didn't even complain when I asked to see one that he'd apparently seen already. It's a really good feeling having people there for you.

I wish this really was just some bad joke. If you pop out at me laughing at my gullibility, bring it on. I hate being humiliated, but right now I'd prefer it.

Current Mood: sadsad
Iriaca: icon-hydewhythissilencefaded_poetry on January 16th, 2009 07:11 pm (UTC)
i know no words can settle the feeling of loss; of a dear life taken away from you.

*hugs you tight*
i love you, be strong.
Stephanie: piece of serenitymirroredsakura on January 16th, 2009 10:29 pm (UTC)
My mood is a roller coaster. I get a little less depressed for a while, and then another reporter sends me a message asking for details and my mood goes bamf again. *sigh*
Stephaniemirroredsakura on January 16th, 2009 10:29 pm (UTC)
And thank you. *snuggles* Love love too.
rinoa.: [ff7] tifa thoughtfulaetheristic on January 17th, 2009 01:53 am (UTC)
Oh baby, I'm so sorry. I wish there was something I could say that would make it all better but I know from too much experience that nothing cuts it.

Be strong. My thoughts are with you.
Stephanie: kakairu; chibi loffmirroredsakura on January 18th, 2009 05:42 am (UTC)
*snuggles* Yeah, there aren't really any magic words that can make things better, but knowing other people care can. Thank you. ♥
イッサンmiya_fangirl on January 18th, 2009 04:34 am (UTC)
Ah my love T_T <3 I am so sorry for you loss. I know the feeling of losing a friend who you care for and wish you had spent more time with. I hope he went peacefully.

It's OK to be sad and mourn his loss, but I am happy he is remembered by you for being someone who was there.

I am here for you, OK? *hugs*
Stephanie: i love youmirroredsakura on January 18th, 2009 05:51 am (UTC)
I don't think he did. I think he died screaming. It's hard to go peacefully if you're caught in a fire. That's half of what makes me so unhappy. ._.

And thank you. *snuggles* It means a lot.
イッサンmiya_fangirl on January 18th, 2009 05:57 am (UTC)
Don't think that way Stephie T_T It will only mess with your heead. Maybe something fell on him and he went before something worse could happen. I mean it is a horrible death regardless, but now he is in peace <3