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23 June 2004 @ 12:04 am
Dear Dad,

Yeah, okay they're gone now. You happy? I'm sure you're loving the patch of raw red flesh instead, aren't you? Fuck you. It's not like I'm getting it for real. You know sure as hell I would never get it for real. But no. You just have to act the little fuck that you knew you can be, call it ugly, call me ugly, and order me to get rid of it. I fucking love you too.

It's just marker damn it! They're in no way permanent, and in no way have anything to do with you. Fuck you. Fuck you fuck you fuck you. I want out of this stupid house, this stupid family, this stupid fuck that is the life you want me to live.

God. So yeah. The wings are gone. My dad thinks I'm ugly. My mom does too, but she's nice about it at least. Well, they've got my sister to fawn over. May I go now?

~ Steph
ceetscomettail on June 23rd, 2004 05:01 am (UTC)
Mm... ;\ Stupid generational gaps... It's not you dad's fault and it's not yours either. Just a big difference of opinion. *sighs* It's quite sad though, how you wanted to express yourself and have fun. I really do hope you realize that there are lots of parents out there who just don't know how to express themselves correctly. :/ I have a friend who's parents are completely clueless to showing their love... but they do show it in ways that are really hard to see. My friend also feels that her parents adore her sister and like her less but I don't think so. :\ It may seem indefinately like they favour your sister but I'm positive they don't have a reason to like you any less. I hope you get it resolved... Although solving it may not result in a "oh happy happy loving family", the important part is to pick out moments where they show they care. ^^ Because I'm sure they do love you very much, Steph. ;o Gwah, it sucks how I can't give you a nice tight hug over the internet *kicks computer* but~ *hugs tightly anyway* ^^
Stephaniemirroredsakura on June 23rd, 2004 12:07 pm (UTC)
*smiles* Yes I know. You make an excellent voice of reason. Better yet because I know it's true. *wistfully* I really just wish sometimes.... ah well. Plenty of time for that I suppose.