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01 May 2005 @ 10:30 pm
^-^;;; Um... people who aren't interested in a spew of Steph-garble, keep on scrolling.

Okay, here's the thing. I'm just going to write it here because then you have absolutely no way of reading it ever, because hey, you avoid LJ like the plague. All the better for me. I am tired of you. I'm sick and tired of being the one you need to hold your hand whenever your mother scolds you, when your father ignores you, when you fail to land that last basket, when you don't get that goal, when someone says something mean to you at school. You're turning twenty-fucking-one, you don't look to your friend three years your junior when you're in tears because that girl you like forgot your name.

I'm tired of watching your sad, sad attempts at pretending how much you like Gackt and Hyde and L'Arc just because I do, and how you try so hard to act as if you're a homosexual, just so you can glance surreptitiously over your shoulder as if seeking my approval. Yes, Nessa broke up with you. Deal with it. I've said it before--you started dating her, and suddenly you grew both a spine, and apparently a penis, considering how you constantly propositioned everything on two legs that has breasts. Now she's left you, and you're back to being a cringing, whimpering little puppy dog.

And no, I am not going to date you. Yes, even if you look like Hyde. I honestly don't give a fuck how you look, considering the idiot you're being. Just because you're now single doesn't mean you instantly have to latch onto the closest girl you see. Just because I'm now single doesn't mean you instantly have to choose me. Your attempts at being endearing just... aren't. Gah.

I really don't know how to put frustration into words. It's just... ugh.

And then the fangirls. I reaaaalllyyy don't like naming names, because I don't like hurting anyone. But as far as I know, none of them are on my f-list (and vice versa) and besides, I won't name names anyway. I've grown rather tired of them too. Yes darling, Hyde is a very pretty boy and yes the Evil Eye tape is a really nice watch, especially on your first time, but I don't need to listen to your entire spiel about it for nearly an hour. I don't entirely care for the specifics of Hyde's measurements through your observations. I don't need to know that he has a slimmer waist than yours, or just how much prettier his eyebrows, his nose, his eyelashes, his eyes, the color of his eyes, the texture of his hair(--how can you deduce the texture of his hair anyway if you've never run your hands through it?)... just... no.

I'm also beginning to be sick of the same questions over and over and over again. By the same person too, I might add. "OOOH have you heard the Jyojyoushi clip it's so pretty!!!!" or something like that. Again and again and again. In the same convo. My goodness.

Just a little frustration. It'll pass. I regularly enjoy helping other people and uploading stuff for them and sending them stuff. But I largely dislike waxing into the stupidity that most of these conversations turn to. Girls, finding Hyde attractive, even in his early indies days, does not automatically require you to reconsider your sexuality. I've had the same conversation about Mana. Godsall.

*breathes* Yeah. Pointless blather. Onto better topics of posting. Gackt's Black Stone PV.

...I want that truck.

...Yeah, okay and his hair. I don't know why most of the girls are kicking up such a huge fuss about his hair. I like his hair. Long hair is pretty, especially on pretty men. *shrug*

And I want to make an icon, but I've fiddled with the text for so long and it still doesn't look right and I'm sad. *pout* This is what happens when Steph-who-can't-do-anything-artsy-on-computer tries to do something vaguely artsy on the computer. I'm pathetic. ^-^;;; *shrug* Can only get better, I suppose.
Current Mood: stressedstressed
Current Music: Hyde - Careless Whisper
you can have my precious bones on my return: blondelirimaer on May 2nd, 2005 04:01 am (UTC)
Hyde had extensions for Evil Eye/Last Quarter, so that's not even his hair, really... so they definitely don't know the texture...

And if text doesn't work, then the icon doesn't want it, so don't use it~
Stephaniemirroredsakura on May 2nd, 2005 04:05 am (UTC)
Not unless it's the feel of fake hair, I guess.

And... icon-wise, that's a good point. *goes to consider it critically again*
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Stephaniemirroredsakura on May 2nd, 2005 04:12 am (UTC)
^-^ Which is why generally I do not mind fangirls. Not even when they ask stupid questions---well, maybe over an extended period of time. But usually it's only when they wax entirely too much into the aesthetics.
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(no subject) - mirroredsakura on May 2nd, 2005 01:19 pm (UTC) (Expand)
Ideomideom on May 2nd, 2005 04:15 am (UTC)
aaw, *pets* its' okay, jsut breathe deeply and they'll all explode and leave you in peace.

or perhaps not.

either way, I have faith in you.

and ... while i'm at it ... *pimps ficlet* go see!
Stephaniemirroredsakura on May 2nd, 2005 04:19 am (UTC)
I'm reading! I'm reading right this moment in fact! *grins*
labrum on May 2nd, 2005 04:32 am (UTC)
Ah, fen. We're a weird bunch, and it gets hard sometimes when you try to compartmentalize us, 'cause some of us really aren't that different.

But the type you mean? Yes, headdesk-worthy, for sure. *headdesk*

Stephaniemirroredsakura on May 2nd, 2005 04:39 am (UTC)
Like I said. I can handle stupid questions. I can not for an extended period of time, handle minute details on the attractiveness of a person. I don't particularly care that Hyde's eyebrows, for example, are arched like the curve of dragonfly wings. My. Dear. God.
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Selah: gackt's beautiful breakdownspinshadow on May 2nd, 2005 04:42 am (UTC)
I've gotten so used to fangirl stupidity over the years that my eyes just sort of glaze right over it anymore. *pets*

There's a big fuss being kicked up over his hair? Oh for pity's sake.... Is it because it's long or mumbling about whether or not it's even really his? ~_^
Stephaniemirroredsakura on May 2nd, 2005 04:49 am (UTC)
I think it's because a good bunch think it's ugly. Not quite sure if they know it's fake yet...

This is prompting me to go to school with blue hair tomorrow, now. I think I will. ^^;; Random~
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Miho: Shogo // memihogoeth on May 2nd, 2005 09:32 am (UTC)
oo good points ^^ I am really tired of the fangirlizm.. which is why I try not to write about it in my journal >< Haha, you said pretty much everything I have wanted to say. great job ^^
Stephaniemirroredsakura on May 2nd, 2005 01:12 pm (UTC)
I must repeat. "Hyde's eyebrows arch like a dragonfly's wing!!!" (Er... I do believe I added a lot more correct spelling and syntax than in the actual quote, but I can wave that aside as she doesn't really speak English)

...Dragonfly? Dragonfly? Maybe that was an attempt at being poetic, but honestly, why would anyone notice that? o.o;;
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Ellelalalalaizuki on May 2nd, 2005 10:52 am (UTC)
Fangirly fangirls need to be pushed off a cliff. :x And I mean that in the nicest way possible, but really, I know exactly what you mean :x it's frustrating because you just wanna strangle them and shut them up, but at the same time "everyone's entitled to their own opinion and kshdkjshdkjs free speech and whatever else" so you can't do anything about it :x ... not fun. :x

Gackt is hot. ^-^ I love his long hair ^^ It was the first thing I noticed, besides the fact he's no longer emo he's... visual!!!! XD His outfit made me smile ^_____________^ and Black Stone is an addictively catchy "Another World" type song ^-^
Stephaniemirroredsakura on May 2nd, 2005 01:10 pm (UTC)
*giggles* That's my Lai-chan.

...That's what I've started calling you apparently. o.O;;

...^-^;;; You're stuck with it! Lai-chan!Lai-chan!Lai-chaaaaaaan! *christens*
イッサンmiya_fangirl on May 2nd, 2005 05:41 pm (UTC)
I don't like his hair... I Looooove it ^.^

and I added you to my friends' list (was about time, ne?)

*hugs you*
Stephaniemirroredsakura on May 2nd, 2005 07:07 pm (UTC)
Oooh! *grins* Have I friended you yet? *goes to check* If I haven't, you are now!
[dIdjuitkrabs]: dentistbijuarukei on May 2nd, 2005 07:26 pm (UTC)
I know I don't comment on your journal too much, but I would like to say that I feel like I'm in the same boat with the issue of the "friend" you mentioned. When a person constantly brings up homosexuality, it becomes obvious that he/she is trying desperately to put on this image he/she thinks you will like. I have a friend just like that who constantly puts down heterosexuals (he calls them "breeders"), mentions tiny things that happened to him/he heard that might offend the most sensitive homosexual (i.e.: someone called Ellen Degeneres a dyke), and goes to the Rocky Horror Picture Show every week like it's church (not to mention that he's on the cast). Yet, at the same time, his only romantic/sexual interest is in women.

Also, I know what you mean about fangirls "questioning their sexuality" because of hyde's flowing brown hair and eyes like shining stars in the night sky *cough*.

I lost my train of thought and realized this was quite ranty. Sorry.
[dIdjuitkrabs]: sex lemurbijuarukei on May 2nd, 2005 07:28 pm (UTC)
BTW! I little off-topic note, but I just realized that you live in Oakville. I used to live in Burlington. I probably already mentioned that, but... small world, eh?
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jackijackichen007 on May 4th, 2005 10:12 pm (UTC)
and i thought i was young, for being an 18-year old fan...

wasn't too aware that there were 12-13 year old fangirls until of lately. >.>

it kind of scares me, and i mean there are times where fangirly remarks/outbursts can be tolerated (especially if its nice, hot pictures/pvs/performances ! =D) but...there gets to a point where its just ridiculous and you want them to STOP talking about how hot hyde is (or tetsu, ken, yuki). that man has an amazing voice and songwriting skills and that should be one of the main reasons we love him, not *just* because he's gorgeous. otherwise he would just be eyecandy and there is plenty of that =D

(sorry ranting!)
Stephaniemirroredsakura on May 5th, 2005 12:36 am (UTC)
Even if he was just eye candy, that'd be enough, I'd think. ^^;; I'm not sure. I think I could be that shallow... o.O;;

Who knows? Hyde can't suddenly lose his talent.

...I... hope... *watches him anxiously*

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