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06 July 2005 @ 12:04 am

^^;; You know me... I hate whinging, for the most part... but I felt a need to get this off my chest before I go off on vacation and compound it with my traditional bitchfests with my father. Happens every time. We really don't make good company for each other over extended periods of time, I think. ^^;;


I hate this sneaking of wireless Internet from some unknown neighbour merely because my father cannot get our own wireless network working after trying to connect Vicki's spanking new laptop to it several days ago. This means intermitted flickering on and off MSN and AIM but usually not enough to maintain any sort of reasonable conversation with anyone. This doesn't really anger me... it just irritates me somewhat.

Oh. And did I mention Vicki has a new laptop? "You have to wait 'til University!" my ass. Sure, she whines and screams and throws tantrums and she gets expensive presents. I whine, even a little, and I'm a shame to the family. >.>;; Favoritism at its most blatant, folks. Everybody knows it, everyone even tells them they can see it, and they know it and don't know how to stop it. It's kind of cute, the way they can fool themselves so well... you know, in that very sad way. That's what our whole family life is, anyway, them lying to themselves. But as that hurts entirely too much to even think about, I'm not going into that, much less find the capability in me to be able to write it down.

^^;; I think that might actually be what this entry is about... me doing what I always do and side-stepping around the main hurt and fussing about the superficial. Well... I don't know how to stop it. Saying it, writing it or even thinking about it will just make me more afraid, and I don't think I can stand that right now. ^^;;

So! I'll stay with just the superficial! THEY NEVER GOT ME A BIRTHDAY PRESENT! *pouts* Wanna know why? Because they'd already spent too much buying my sister's laptop! ;p

Seriously though... I sometimes wonder how they can spend $1000+ on my sister for no apparent reason, can take us to HK for a 3-week crosscountry venture, and yet won't even consider letting me buy this for myself as a present to me.

In conclusion (or to summarize, for those who avoided the lj-cut ^^): Steph's parents are meeaaaann :( :( :( and I'm greedy and want presents and I'm very, very weird.

^_^ I think I'm just not meant to understand my parents, huh? Or myself even, and my apparent mood swings. I was just blinking back tears, ten minutes ago, wasn't I? And here I am smiling and singing along happily to Love Flies. *shakes head* Just more evidence to support the "Steph is completely and utterly off her freaking rocker" claim.

*shrugs and dances off to the sounds of Stay Away to replay Donkey Kong 64*

P.S. Seven, no SIX days now! left until I go flying off to parts unknown. ^_^

P.P.S. The Trax are fucking awesome. I failed to mention that when I first heard their music. (Stupid me) But now I've been finally able to download the PVs which leaves me slack-jawed at how pretty they are too. :O :O :O They are so coming with me to HK. ^^
Current Music: L'Arc~en~Ciel - Time Slip
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Stephanie: ayuhatmirroredsakura on July 7th, 2005 04:15 am (UTC)
*hugs you tooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo*

.......and *SKWISH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*es your sexy, sexy icon as well. ;9
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(no subject) - mirroredsakura on July 7th, 2005 02:32 pm (UTC) (Expand)
Kagome: Adam - Milkywaykagome_angel on July 6th, 2005 02:55 pm (UTC)
*Hugs tight* It's kinda pathetic that your parents are like that. Didn't even buy you a birthday present? Or let you buy yourself one? Ugh. It's ridiculous and I'm so sorry you have to deal with it, Stephy-chan. *Hugs tight*
Stephanie: ayuhatmirroredsakura on July 7th, 2005 04:14 am (UTC)
Eh, it's okay. I know a little as to how they work... they're always really hesitant about buying stuff online... maybe they'll surprise me and buy me something ridiculously expensive all of a sudden. ^^;; (....Despite the fact that my parents suuuuuuuure don't like surprises, nor do they like thinking up them either... meh! It can happen! ^.^)

But hey, I could just be a greedy brat and want all my things NOW! ^_^

THANK YOU for the fic by the way. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU. I was not expecting cute, fluffy, fluff fluff alongside hot, sweaty Yukitsu mansex. ^_________^ *dances*
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Ryugoryu482 on July 6th, 2005 03:50 pm (UTC)
*hugs you* You aren't being crazy or weird, I don't think.
Stephanie: lirimaer  honeymirroredsakura on July 7th, 2005 04:09 am (UTC)
^^;; No? I'm just.... mood-swing-y?

The only thing I can think of right now is a Gundam Wing reference. I am SUCH a real-life Duo. o.O

I don't think that makes quite as much to sense to most people as it does me. ^^;;
sentience1997 on July 6th, 2005 04:41 pm (UTC)
Your parents confuse me so much sometimes, i really can not understand them-- not that my parents dont give in to my brothers demands like a billion times more then they do to me, but they treat him shittier in other ways so i accept it i guess...

You know- if you weren't leaving in a couple days i totally buy Awake for you-- though alas i think youd be long gone before it got here and thus could probably guy it in HK sans shipping.

Speaking of shipping though--- ORESAMA finally shipped, i'm still in shock because personally i figured that it would be floating around for months and months more looking for suppliers--- yesasia appologized though, but arent offering me a discount or anything, but meh they say i'll get it on July 10th so i'm impressed-- and also assume they mean 11th here but what ever...

bah- must get back to work *is freezing cold and hungry*
sentience1997 on July 6th, 2005 04:51 pm (UTC)
Re: Christ...

*KILLS YESASIA* Oh, it's shipping is it? Is it really? ARE YOU SURE IT"S NOT SEARCHING FOR SUPPLIERS AGAIN?!?!?! Why oh why? and they teased me to, telling me theyre sorry and that it was going to be here this weekend/next and then clearly lying because oh thats right, its out of stock and it's not actually coming!! Honestly, WTF>>
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qtbugqtbug on July 6th, 2005 05:49 pm (UTC)
favotism sucks. your parents should not treat you in that way. compare to 1000+ dollars of loptop, 31 dollars of a CD is a cute little gift. hang in there. you will be free of them eventually. *hugs*

i don't have siblings, so i don't face favotism directly, but my parents always always compare me to my two cousins. they are always like how great they are compare to you. they both got newst photo ipod for christmas while i spent half year trying to convince them to buy me a ipod mini. fuck them.
Stephaniemirroredsakura on July 7th, 2005 03:46 am (UTC)
^_^ They do that all the time too.

...Except they recently found out how imperfect they are and have demoted them from "Golden Boy(s)" status to... hmmm... "Bash at every opportunity"? ^^;;
Hareimachang on July 6th, 2005 05:56 pm (UTC)
I hate parents like that. I know all about the Favoritism thing and it haunts me everyday.

I couldn't even buy you Laruku? That just hurts. *hugs*

THE TRAX!!!! Rose is soooooo hot. I absolutely <3 him.
Stephaniemirroredsakura on July 7th, 2005 03:45 am (UTC)
*swoons* He is. As are the others. *_____*

^-^ I will manage to buy myself Laruku JUST YOU WAIT! *punches air with fist*
feneryfenery on July 6th, 2005 09:11 pm (UTC)
*cuddles* that sucks

I love the Trax ♥
Stephaniemirroredsakura on July 7th, 2005 03:43 am (UTC)
^_____________^ So do you know when their actual album is slated for release? I could only find out "very soon" from all my poking.
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イッサンmiya_fangirl on July 7th, 2005 06:59 am (UTC)
My younger sister has 7000 times more liberties than I did I her age... I guess when parents become older they just start to fuck uo their prioroties and stuff. TREAT YOUR DAUGHTERS EQUALLY, DAMMIT.

So I understand and... I HUG YOU *hugs you* If she shouts, shout louder XD They're not mean, they're just a little weak towards the younger ones~
Stephaniemirroredsakura on July 7th, 2005 02:27 pm (UTC)

OH WELL! I suppose they'll manage to make up for themselves somehow by... giving me presents? ^^;; I am a very material person. Or at least... I think so. o.O;; It's not that bad a way to be. ^^;;
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aylengyraylengyr on July 12th, 2005 01:38 am (UTC)
hey! sorry ive been slooow to reply to things but ive been sick....*zzz* anyway *wakes up* I wish I could buy you the awake album but Im broke this week after the whole hospital thing. I still want to send you a present...humm...maybe in a couple of weeks. After some more stupid money arrives. Dont worry I never fail to succeed in the end. Well I did find one thing I wanted to send you but it was so huge and titanic that shipping it was impossible! It was a huge stuffed dog, very cute and all but way too big. Now we just keep it around the house.
Stephaniemirroredsakura on July 12th, 2005 08:27 am (UTC)
Yes I know... *pets your... intestine... o.O;;;*

And... tee hee, I'm going to look for AWAKE in HK... let's hope they have it! I can just imagine myself in the first CD store I see... it'll be like a... Steph in a candy store. ^^

Last thing... puppy!! *pets it from afar* ^_~ At least it looks ornamentative sitting about your house!
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